Sunday, January 9, 2011

First love

My Dear First love,
It was nice knowing you.. Thanks for giving me those wonderful experiences... The feeling of being swept off my feet, the skip of a heart beat when i see your face, going breathless when you talk, forgetting my words when i looked into your eyes,  the shyness i felt, i guess all those were just the play of hormones.. which i took rather seriously.. Our first talk over the phone, Our first walk, our first date, the nervousness in me when i had to lie to my parents to go out with you, talking endlessly over the phone, 24 7 messaging, Our first fight, The feel of affection n care that you showered, the first movie that we watched, bowling with you n my friends, The endless time we spent in ccd n mcd, the crazy talks, My first b'day with you, Your first b'day with me, the way you used to tease me, how we tried pulling each other's leg, the countless arguments and the patch up's later(that was the best part), thanks for all those experiences..  I enjoyed all those moments then :) now i ll just remember them as good times :) You changed my perspective about life, taught me how to deal with changing times, you made me a better person.. I thought you were mine to keep, but fate had planned something else.. Breaking up was tough.. But the best thing to do.. Realization finally sunk in that it was just merely the play of hormones  and wasn't really true love...
It was all friendship since the start, we just misinterpreted it.. You have grown so close to me, been there for me many times.. All i wish now, is that we become good friends and nothing more.. You truly are a good friend and i would love to have u beside me as a friend.. Starting afresh, forgetting the past, lets create new memories of our friendship... The past seems so childish.. I hope even you think the same...
take care

Monday, January 3, 2011

Just wondering...

Why we always crave for things which we can't ve?
Why we always end up doing things which we once hated?
Why while waiting for the bus we want, all the other rare n not so frequent buses come?
Why things happen only during exams?
Why a person very close to us becomes a stranger overnight?
Why the thing we wished for comes true when we no longer wish for it?
Why we pay for a mistake that was committed by some other person?
Why the nostalgic feel during exams?
Why friends part?
Why we can't hang out like we always used to?
Why time has to run superfast when ur with friends n y time is snail paced during boring lectures?
Why why why???
Should i consider it my bad luck n fate?
R should i be writing my own destiny? r is it all pre-written by GOD??

The Kick

We get sooo illusion-ed by this world that we just start living in our dreams rather than our reality, just like in Inception. And we need a totem to know the reality from the fantasy world n a kick to get us out of there if we get lost!!!
My friends are my totem, who constantly remind me of the harsh reality. But sometimes i just ignore them n continue believing that this a magical world n my story is going to be a fairy tale.
The kick came to me in the form of an incident ( which i can never forget but have to).Am wide awake now, know wat life really means n is all about (i think i do) n the essence of the phrases "whatever happens, happens for good" , "time heals everything"...
Awake now i feel very matured, a strange peace fills me, its like a new "me" is born. Excited about life n wat it has in store.. After all life is also a big dream in which we all r lost!